I remembered ending my previous post with Wilfred's chalet. So here's two of the lovely group photos before I forgotten. Happy Birthday, Brotherrr! ( thou its over, & I doubt you'll see this.)

Did you know? Ever since young, I don't know how the feelings is like to be at home. By the time when I am more sensible as a kid, I am already living with my grandma. As I grow, my Bro was studying his university in Japan. While, I only sees my dad every Sat and my Sis like only twice a month! After Brother graduated, I was so anticipating for his return. Thats when my Sis moved out. Together with Dad and Bro, we shifted into this new apartment. Bro shifted out with his wife and Sis shifted in with her husband and her son. And I spent most of my teenager life alone at home. I have never felt at home like a completed family, before. Don't ask me why I don't miss my mum. The reason is simple, its because I hardly even remember how her features' like. I'd say I was force to grow up in a mutual way of my own.

I guess I am the bad girl among all my cousins. Purely because I hit the clubs often and stay over frequently? Who says not going home = bad girl?? Alright, so I tried putting myself in my Dad's shoes and I told myself that perhaps I should stay at home more often, AND I DID! Apparently, I rejected B several times and got myself ended up so rotten at home and I didnt complain a single thing. And guess what??..

My dad reprimanded me when I accompanied him and Sis down for dinner earlier on. So he said, he has told me many times that I should go out early and return home. Yes, don't assume that I don't understand his sentence. Cause i DID tried to be a good girl, staying at home more often nowadays and stuffs, yet he still dare to ask for more. The more I stay at home, the more he nags at me whenever I go out. So what the hell is this? And when I don't return home like before, he nags lesser. This is how I replied him just now. I now this is rude but wtf. He is precisely driving me nuts. Proving to me that "humans just never get satisfied" this phrase is so god-damn true. I hate being controlled and I hate being told by a loud tone even more.

Sis once did the same thing not long ago, I know she still dislike me for not coming back home now. I know she just keeping quiet. I really appreciate how she treated me and I really love her for trusting me. Sometimes, the best communication is thru actions and not screaming on top of your voices! Its like, you are using the wrong method on the wrong target. Get me?

Anyway, I hope that 2010 is a good year ahead.

Thou 2009 isnt a really good one cause I have changed bf one after another. But I am glad I am settling down now, and have been together with Mr Heng for 8 mths long already. I'd admit that this is the longest relationship so far, not referring to breaking and patching up. So I guess this is a good start..?

Probably this is the best relationship B have ever had, but I am also the suckiest gf he had. Cause I am so spoiled and have such bad attitude! I know he doesnt like it. And I am sure that one day if he leaves me, this would be the reason why. Knowing that this might be the reason causing him to break up with me in the future, I still unable to stop myself from it. God-knows-why. Then in the end, I am the one hurting myself. Just like a dog biting its own tail. Seriously can laugh at myself man..

But he told me, he don't want us to have any regrets. So he always make me think twice before I mention break up in a haste. I am glad that I found him, cause he taught me diff things in a relationship. Thanks to his forgiving and patience that made us still holding on strong today. And loving someone for so long feels great... :)